My room needs cleaned out asap. Major cleaining. And not so much cleaning like disinfecting type cleaning, but rather getting rid of crap I don't use or need anymore!
Donation bins here I come!
Monday, June 13, 2011
Monday, March 28, 2011
Oh Sociology...how I miss thee...
I found my sociology portfolio!! yes!! Want to know what makes me, me? Read that! LOL
I needed a reminder from the me 3 years ago...
"...If for some reason my passions shift direction, so they shift. And I will again start figuring out what make me hopeful because I think that is one of the greatest feelings - hoping and knowing that something better is yet to come."
I needed a reminder from the me 3 years ago...
"...If for some reason my passions shift direction, so they shift. And I will again start figuring out what make me hopeful because I think that is one of the greatest feelings - hoping and knowing that something better is yet to come."
Sunday, February 6, 2011
changes
My friend Jessica lost her dad three weeks ago tomorrow. He was 52. Retired 3 years ago. His wife and him just got back from vacationing in Scotland and Ireland. They owned property that they were going build their retirement home on in the next few years. WTF.
Sometimes life just doesn't make sense. Ugh.
Nothing in life makes us different. That could have very easily been me. I am the same as the guy down the street from. The woman in the next city and daughter on the other side of the world. Words can't describe the pain I feel for her. And selfishly, for myself when that day comes.
I feel like I have lost my way in life. I'm not the same person I was when I graduated. I thought post-college beliefs and attitudes would be about the same. I felt pretty "shaped" while in college and thought I found my way. Pssh. I feel more lost than ever. Life has officially bogged me down. I'm stuck in a job to pay the infamous bills and be able to save for my future (grad school, home, new car, etc). I know it's stupid to feel trapped. I could quit any day and I think my parents would be okay. But I don't want to do that. I don't want to quit. I can't be the one who quits just because I don't like it. And so I keep at it. And every day I feel like it changes me into a person I don't want to be. Maybe this is showing me that I need to fight harder to be who I want. It's not always going to be easy. I know there are struggles. And at times, it's harder than others. I'm in job where I need to be selfish not selfless. I went to college to get into career that forces me to give back to others on days I don't know how to empty more of myself. I miss that. I need that again.
So I guess this just means I need to start my job search like it's my second job :)
In happier news, I'm doing some traveling this year! Possibly: Boston, New Hampshire, Maine, New Jersey, New York, Vegas, Russia, Los Angeles, San Francisco. That's a lot of plane rides!! Woohoo!! I should probably look into a frequent flyer mile card.
My new recent TV obsession is Brothers and Sisters. Like usual, other people can find the words I want to say easier than I can,
"And that's what I would like to toast to…to trusting that the end is worth it and never letting go of its promise."
Sometimes life just doesn't make sense. Ugh.
Nothing in life makes us different. That could have very easily been me. I am the same as the guy down the street from. The woman in the next city and daughter on the other side of the world. Words can't describe the pain I feel for her. And selfishly, for myself when that day comes.
I feel like I have lost my way in life. I'm not the same person I was when I graduated. I thought post-college beliefs and attitudes would be about the same. I felt pretty "shaped" while in college and thought I found my way. Pssh. I feel more lost than ever. Life has officially bogged me down. I'm stuck in a job to pay the infamous bills and be able to save for my future (grad school, home, new car, etc). I know it's stupid to feel trapped. I could quit any day and I think my parents would be okay. But I don't want to do that. I don't want to quit. I can't be the one who quits just because I don't like it. And so I keep at it. And every day I feel like it changes me into a person I don't want to be. Maybe this is showing me that I need to fight harder to be who I want. It's not always going to be easy. I know there are struggles. And at times, it's harder than others. I'm in job where I need to be selfish not selfless. I went to college to get into career that forces me to give back to others on days I don't know how to empty more of myself. I miss that. I need that again.
So I guess this just means I need to start my job search like it's my second job :)
In happier news, I'm doing some traveling this year! Possibly: Boston, New Hampshire, Maine, New Jersey, New York, Vegas, Russia, Los Angeles, San Francisco. That's a lot of plane rides!! Woohoo!! I should probably look into a frequent flyer mile card.
My new recent TV obsession is Brothers and Sisters. Like usual, other people can find the words I want to say easier than I can,
"And that's what I would like to toast to…to trusting that the end is worth it and never letting go of its promise."
Tuesday, December 7, 2010
Oh the dating life...or lack there of...
Tonight my coworker talked me to about dating. And by that I mean all the things that I am doing wrong when it comes to dating and all the things I need to change about myself including but not limited to: clothes. earrings, shoes, parents, topics of discussion, etc.
Since then I have replayed that conversation in my head multiple times and every time come out feeling more and more insulted.
1. Rude.
2. I am happy that I am me and not someone else.
3. I am thankful for my guy friends who are a reminder that there are normal guys out there.
Since then I have replayed that conversation in my head multiple times and every time come out feeling more and more insulted.
1. Rude.
2. I am happy that I am me and not someone else.
3. I am thankful for my guy friends who are a reminder that there are normal guys out there.
Monday, November 15, 2010
Things I have learned or been reminded of from jury duty
1. People are weird.
2. I want to be a lawyer.
3. I greatly dislike my job.
4. I think jury duty is important even if it's tedious.
2. I want to be a lawyer.
3. I greatly dislike my job.
4. I think jury duty is important even if it's tedious.
Tuesday, November 2, 2010
These two people :)
I have these two people in my life. They came into it a little over 1 year ago. They keep me sane. They keep me happy. And they are good reminders of people I want to be like.
Every day, I am thankful for them. And I know for a fact, I would not be the same person without having met them.
Thank you, Jesus.
Every day, I am thankful for them. And I know for a fact, I would not be the same person without having met them.
Thank you, Jesus.
Saturday, October 23, 2010
...of life, of love...
I came across this passage my freshman year of college. It applied so much to me then, and I believe it applies once again to my life. my loves. my friendships.
"The 'veritable life' of our emotions and our relationships also is intermittent. When you love someone you do not love them all the time, in exactly the same way, from moment to moment. It is an impossibility. It is even a lie to pretend to. And yet this is exactly what most of us demand. We have so little faith in the ebb and flow of life, of love, of relationships. We leap at the flow of the tide and resist in terror its ebb. We are afraid it will never return. We insist on permanency, on duration, on continuity; when the only continuity possible, in life as in love, is in growth, in fluidity - in freedom, in the sense that the dancers are free, barely touching as they pass, but partners in the same pattern. The only real security is not in owning or in possessing, not in demanding or expecting, not in hoping, even. Security in a relationship lies in neither looking back to what it was in nostalgia nor forward to what it might be in dread or anticipation, but living in the present relationship and accepting it as it is now."
A good reminder for myself tonight.
"The 'veritable life' of our emotions and our relationships also is intermittent. When you love someone you do not love them all the time, in exactly the same way, from moment to moment. It is an impossibility. It is even a lie to pretend to. And yet this is exactly what most of us demand. We have so little faith in the ebb and flow of life, of love, of relationships. We leap at the flow of the tide and resist in terror its ebb. We are afraid it will never return. We insist on permanency, on duration, on continuity; when the only continuity possible, in life as in love, is in growth, in fluidity - in freedom, in the sense that the dancers are free, barely touching as they pass, but partners in the same pattern. The only real security is not in owning or in possessing, not in demanding or expecting, not in hoping, even. Security in a relationship lies in neither looking back to what it was in nostalgia nor forward to what it might be in dread or anticipation, but living in the present relationship and accepting it as it is now."
A good reminder for myself tonight.
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