Mary Jane

I don't know if it's merely because I'm burnt out and tired or because I'm annoyed with societal acceptions on things...most likely a mixture of both.

This whole going to school and working full time is not working for me. I'm doing just fine at both but I'm in a constant state of feeling like I'm having to play catch up - I hate that feeling. I don't do well with it.

It hasn't been just since I've started working (I've heard this before). I'm tired of hearing "it's just pot". I think I've heard that more times in the past few months than I have my entire life!

It's obviously not "just pot" because you're in freaking rehab!

Perhaps it's just me, but giving up 60 days of my freedom and life to live in a brick building...well, pot is just not worth it!

It's not just the people in my rehab that I hear this from. I hear it from my aunt who wouldn't even let her kids say the word "butt" in the house. To her, somehow pot has lost it's scariness and it's become "just pot". I couldn't believe when I heard her say it! I literally just sat there in awe.

It's still a drug. It's still illegal. It's still altering your state of consciousness. You still will get withdrawal effects from using it! You can still get addicted to it! People abuse it. And it effects people's lives in a damaging way. Ergo...it's not just pot and I'm tired of hearing people say that.

Here's to Hindsight

I'm reading the book Here's to Hindsight. It's an autobiography from Tara Leigh Cobble.

I'm only about a quarter of the way through the book but I enjoy it a lot so far. There's this part in the book when she's talking to her friend...

"That's when Jane said it - the phrase that has become part of my daily vocabulary, that has helped remind me that God is trustworthy even when I don't get Him at all - and she said it better than I ever could have despite the fact that I am the songwriter and she is in the business world.

Well, then....here's to hindsight".